I couldn't breathe. There was a heaviness in my heart and i struggled for air.
Did i just stop breathing? I wondered to myself, my heart beating faster.
I sat up in bed heaving, trying to take in deep slower breaths. I felt sick in the stomach. I got out of bed towards the toilet. Bending over the toilet bowl, I allowed myself to throw up. What came out was not digested dinner but a colorless fluid - stomach acid.
Acid reflux, many might conclude.
Maybe i ate too much before sleeping or it was something i ate or drink (spicy food, garlic, mint, chocolate or carbonated drinks, caffeine can cause reflux) or i really need to start losing weight.
After throwing up, i went back to bed but i could not sleep. I was distressed by the entire experience.
Meditate, meditate. I tried to silence my mind and focus on my breathing.
It wasn't easy. I turned to my handphone and searched for a meditation recording.
"This meditation ... you will feel an inner calm...."
The soothing voice and the beta waves soon set me in a calm relaxed state and i drifted off into a deep sleep.
Was it acid reflux? Something i ate? It was none of that.
Taking some time to reflect, I realized that my mind and body was not connected and i was experiencing stress and anxiety - both of which can cause our body to react in such ways. Emotions we experience as a result of stress, anxiety and/or excitement cause complex physical responses in all aspects of our body, including the digestive system. These physical responses can start and stop quite suddenly and be very intense.
It is our body's way of telling us that we need to check in with ourselves to figure out what is causing us to feel that way and to adjust our lifestyle or cognitive behavior to manage ourselves better. At the end of the day, we are the drivers of our own lives. If we do not take care of our own bodies, we only have ourselves to blame for any ailing health.
If you have experienced such symptoms before or know of someone who has experienced such a reflux reaction, it could very well be be due to stress, anxiety and over-excitement. It means it is time to give your body a break.
Here are a few tips taken from WebMD (and enhanced by me) on what can be done.
by Shane Yan Shiyan & Shamantha Yan Shiya
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